Buoy Don’t Float

Lots of midterms, lots of work, lots of long nights, not enough play! Although I am getting plenty of bass/guitar playing time, not to mention the time to listen to new music. Makes sense, since most of my time is spent in transit, with a handful of 30 minute breaks here and there.

Decided that I don’t want to be bipolar anymore–not that I really was, it was probably more self-induced than anything. Let’s hope this works. Plan to just be my happer, funnier self more often. Not isolate and think of creative suicide schemes so often. Of course, I won’t be a “Christine”–don’t know how she is always so perky; it just makes you jealous–but it’ll be nice to allow yourself some happiness.

Becoming quite the spendthrift. Anything that costs less than an hour of work, thats 13$, and provokes the slightest inkling of want, is bought. With this came the good and the bad. Bought some cigarettes and I’m sad to say that they are unbelievable stress relievers. Hopefully, won’t go beyond this one pack of Camels, but I’ll have to wait and see how finals are.

Current mood: Longing for adventure. It’s tough to find people though. Everyone is too busy, or they make fake promises–myself included. Can’t wait because car = freedom. Camping, snowboarding, fishing, and just good ole driving.